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friends cut

2009-05-06T06:59:17Z

i decided im going to do a friends cut. i never thought i would coz i hate this kind of thing. but... well... some person i had on my friends list removed me (among about 50 other people) and blamed it on my shitty commenting.
i never thought something like this would hurt me. and it didn't. but it hurt my pride. with every new person i add i spend some time getting to know them, commenting and expecting some commenting back. if i didn't comment on their entries, well, they could remove me i don't care. just don't blame me when you don't care to comment either, or to respond to the comments that i have left you. and now if you'll excuse my venting and bitchiness :/

i'm going to cut a few people. this is because :

you don't update often, or you have stopped using your lj account
you don't comment on/care for my entries. mind you, there are people who rarely comment, but when they do, they really show they care.
i haven't got much in common with you and i don't comment. you see, i only comment when i really have something to say. that doesn't mean i don't read all entries though.

list underneath the cut
if you have been busy or taking a hiatus and plan on using your lj again, please feel free to let me know so i can add you back

here goes: alphabetpony
calidreamin08
exosomatic
greek_dude
perfectsinx
red_sleeve
sparkleviolet
tayganjahead
venusonfire

i is lab rat

2009-02-26T20:15:27Z

i am so fucking tired!! tired tired tired tired!!!!
i haven't seen my friends in like a week and i miss them a lot. lab work is going ok. i'm working under this guy named nick that is doing his p.h.d. at our lab. he's practically like a teacher to us. i think i'm very lucky to be working with him, coz i've been watching the other p.h.d. girls at the lab and they treat students like real bitches! but nick is always kind and willing to teach us things and he's never ironic. i like him a lot.

my friend tonia moved out. she's leaving for italy on sunday. she's going to do her thesis-research at a lab there. she's lucky in a way. i'm not a big fan of italy myself but i'd sure like to go abroad for studies as you already know. i'm going to miss her and i don't think we'll ever spend as much time together ever again.

on other news it's halloween in greece!! :P not really, it's more like a carnival. and kinda like mardi gras too, though i'm not sure about the later. anyway, we get to wear costumes and shit and on monday it's a national holiday called "clean monday" coz we don't eat any meat. we get to fly kites and eat lots of yummy stuff like sea food bean soup and halvah. my family and i are going to athens to visit my brother since he's not able to come see us. i don't really want to go, 1) coz this holiday is one that is supposed to be spent in the country and not a city and 2) coz i've gained some weight and i'm sure my grandma is going to make a comment about it.

ugh.. i'm sleepy.. zzzzz

i can't wait to go back

2009-01-21T16:05:42Z

therapy was ok and weird at the same time. my therapist is a middle aged guy that reminds me of an englishman. he was quick to make me feel comfortable. it still was my first session and i have a lot more to get off my chest. i haven't told him about my suicidal thoughts yet and i don't know if i will tell him, but he said im depressed. well, i knew that already. he made it seem though as i can make it go away. and since i have no better alternative i'll believe him.

we started by talking about my ex boyfriend manos. that's coz he asked me when i started feeling this way about myself. i told him it was after my break up with him. then we talked about me and marcos. he totally freaked out about it. i guess i gave him a lot of therapy material just with that :P. anyway we talked some more about my family (at this point my eyes were tearing up but i made it and i didn't cry). then we talked a bit more about marcos and myself until it was time for me to go.

here is what he told me. that i did not learn from my mistakes in past relationships. that my emotions overwhelm me, and that i don't know how to deal with them. that i am too harsh on myself even though i believe the exact opposite. he told me "you say to yourself that you are stupid a lot". and i responded "you have no idea how many times. ever since i can remember myself". he told me that i shouldn't expect people to respect me and appreciate me when i hate myself. he said i have to set my boundaries and not be as submissive as my mother has been to my father's wishes. he said it's a pity for a young girl of only 22 years old to be having such low self esteem thoughts. he said i have potential and i should use it.

i don't know if i can make it. but i can try. i like it that he didn't mention anything about meds. im too young to be taking meds. plus i hate the idea of being drugged 24/7. i have an appointment for next tuesday and until then i am to think about who afroditi is and what she wants her life to be like.

pic spam and a video

2008-12-20T15:19:50Z

sorry for disappearing like that. so jj gave me s dvd full of goodies and in it was a file of different pics we've taken through these years. and i decided to spam you with stupid pics!!

thi is jj and me slightly buzzed

bella on the train

jj and i again... slightly drunk this time.. this was the first night i ever got high :P

hairdo by moi

drinking at heart rock

that's tonia. and we were supposed to be writing a paper

hell yeah \o/

tonia eating a raw pepper.. yuk

they're all high..

jj likes to take pics like that where i humiliate myself :/

here's another example..

anywayzz END SPAMMING HERE!

and now for the video

bjork is a goddess. she makes my soul grow bigger and warmer.

i hate xmas!

2008-12-12T19:07:33Z

i was out with my sis and jj today. jj bought christmas cards. i was looking for some cool hair dye but all i could find was purple and i don't want that coz my glasses are purple and that would be too much purple on my head. so i bought a book. jeffrey eugenides' middlesex. i read a few pages and i already know im going to love it. i loved the virgin suicides. i really should buy more books in the future. jj bought a dirty underwear thingy coz she now has a boyfriend. i, on the other hand dont feel like buying any clothes. i feel ugly lately.

anyway, heres a pic of my sis and i at starbucks:

pimping!!

2008-12-10T09:12:32Z

i joined this new community, that i think is really awesome coz its a place where you can post and talk about anything you want. just the other day i was hoping there was a community like that, where you can meet new people and talk about things whitout that meaning you share a common obsession for a tv show, fashion, fan fiction and what else. and now i found it through one of my lj friends. so make sure to visit and join if you want.

click here ------> re_discovery

crybaby0_0 @ 2008-11-23T18:11:00

2008-11-23T16:21:58Z

i'm in a place where i really hate my life right now. i was thinking of deleting this lj account. i don't think i can do this though because ... because many entries have sentimental value for me. so i came up with a better idea. i'll stop using this account for some time. i have no idea for how much. as long as it takes me to get better. everything in my head is a big mess so i'll go back to writing in my diary as i have been for many many years till now, plus i decided i need to go to therapy. yeah, i'll go... sometime soon i hope.

anyway, i would like to thank my friends suchasthis , x_memoirs and also my most recent friend withinobscurity because they have been very supportive through my relationship trouble. so yeah thank you guys. in fact all of my lj friends have been great.
and oh, by the way HAPPY BIRTHDAY sophiaisticated !!

see you soon guys :)

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

2008-11-16T20:45:13Z

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

MyHeritage: Οικογενειακά δέντρα - Γενεαλογία - Διασημότητες

pic posting time!

2008-11-01T13:44:59Z

i sat on my cat mariposa yesterday. no seriously i sat on her! i didn't notice she was on the chair and i sat on her. poor thing cried out in pain :( it was kinda funny but i felt really guilty about it. sometimes i wonder if he's really smart or really stoopid. she likes to play with qtips (she eats the cotton :/ ) so now she's learned how to climb on the washing mashing, flip the box open and get them out of there ... i guess that qualifies as smart. on the other hand.. lol... she fell off the balcony the other day, which is completely stoopid! well, i guess that's what happened coz our neighbor that lives right bellow us found her on her balcony, staring at her. seesh... what a weird cat. :P

crybaby0_0 @ 2008-10-16T20:58:00

2008-10-16T17:58:39Z

Writer's Block: Live Music

2008-10-10T13:31:14Z

When it comes to bebop, you want to take it straight, no chaser. And a smoky jazz club is the best place to get it. What’s your favorite kind of place to see live music?

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mmm... for summers i choose terra vibe and for colder days id choose a smaller bar like gagarin
terra vibe is huge and chaotic but if you get there really early and manage to shoulder your way through you might get close enough to the stage to see your idol rocking a few feet away. on the other hand bars (to be honest i dunno if thats the right term to use but anyway) like gagarin that are especially made for concerts are smaller and you can get a lot lot closer to the stage.
*sigh* i really miss going to a concert....

feist - brandy alexander

2008-08-29T10:35:29Z

i love this song

crybaby0_0 @ 2008-08-27T16:02:00

2008-08-27T13:04:40Z

my cat. shes a superhero...

how to disappear completely

2008-08-24T11:12:56Z

im not a thing, i am a person and i have feelings and you just hurt them...

newly wed

2008-07-19T11:26:03Z

    so marcos and i got married the other day.. well not in real life. we got married at marry_a_ljuser which in reality is only make believe but its still romantic and sweet. he was the one to find out about the community and he was like "oh! check this out". he was so cute while he was trying to ask me to marry him :) and then while he was writing the entry for it, i was watching him through the web cam and he was making all these cute and sweet faces.. he is adorable. i said yes of course. heres the link to it too..
    sometimes the way he treats me is really confusing. there are moments that i feel really loved, i feel like im the center of his attention. but sometimes it feels like he doesnt care, or that his love for me is fading. i dont know.. im trying to be understanding. but i dont think im a good girlfriend. i have to try more for the sake of us. then about the matter of seeing each other. seems like we wont get to see each other this summer. he needs money for college, so its either me or his education. i cant and i wont make him give up his future for a few days with me. sadly i cant visit right now either. i dont have a passport or a visa as i was supposed to visit him on xmas. and since i dont have a job yet i dont have the money either.
    the thought of me sleeping in his arms even for a few nights was what kept me going. i cant say i dont mind that we have to postpone it. but i totally understand. there are things in his life that are more important than me. i know this.

six months !

2008-07-10T14:44:39Z

tomorrow my birthday :)

Writer's Block: LJ in IRL

2008-06-22T09:59:33Z

Share a memorable real life moment that happened because of LiveJournal.

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ummm... i met my boyfriend on the first post i ever made. :D i like to say it was love at first comment.. now he's flying over to see me in 2 weeks. i cant wait!
thank you livejournal :)

i want one too :(

2008-06-18T21:03:03Z

shake it!

2008-06-08T12:30:16Z

hey! mini earthquake! cool as long as it doesnt kill people. been years since ive last felt one.

study time

2008-06-06T20:45:49Z

ive been studying like crazy for the past 5, i think, days. my biochemistry test is on monday. then its enzymology on wednesday and this teaching class od thursday. then i have a week or so for clinical biochemistry and developmental biology. its less than a month and ill be exhausted by the end of it but ill get through it. and you know why?
coz my baby got a passport!! :D:D:D:D
hes coming over to see me this july! or at least we hope he does. its a lot of money from california to greece. i so hope he can make it. :(
ugh! im so excited! what am i going to say when i finally see him? im going to forget every english word ive ever learned, just like the first time we talked on the phone. *facepalm* what an embarrassing situation. and what if he kisses me there at the airport? or what if he doesnt like me? what if hes disappointed by what i look like? ugh!!
*crossing fingers* i just have to do my best and be patient till midterms are over.

Writer's Block: Creepy Crawlies

2008-05-28T21:22:53Z

If you had the chance to go crazy and completely overhaul your appearance, what would you do?

Or:

Recount a remarkable incident involving insects.

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first of all, I HATE MOTHS! im scared shitless and i have no idea why. i dont like bugs in general but moths and grasshoppers i really cant stand.
so last summer, i was at the movies with my best friends. its after midnight and were heading home. they walk me to my front door and then leave. i take the elevator and while im searching my bag for my keys i notice a huge black moth in my door!
i had to go back outside run after them and ask them to get rid of the humongous monster so that id be able to get inside :P i was waiting in the elevator the whole time, taking peeks at them fighting the beast. they finally managed to scare it away and i ran straight to the door and inside. they were my saviors! ill be forever grateful!

pathetic huh? yeah i know... :P

crybaby0_0 @ 2008-05-12T01:15:00

2008-05-11T22:16:36Z

ugh... im so insecure i hate myself

crybaby0_0 @ 2008-05-01T23:06:00

2008-05-01T20:08:34Z

i dunno how to feel. both restless and listless.

crybaby0_0 @ 2008-04-24T13:31:00

2008-04-24T10:33:17Z

its their best song... i keep listening to it on repeat

crybaby0_0 @ 2008-04-19T09:11:00

2008-04-19T06:12:07Z

what do you do when you hurt your lover?
- make sure you hurt even more